"If I lay here,
if I just lay here...
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

Close to you

Wandering around in those sweet summer days,
watching the sun, I would always get amazed.
In the beach, so close to the sea
we'd always talk about how life would be.
The waves crash in as we try to know
if love is really the best way to grow.
I lay beside her, let the moment last,
how can time just go by this fast?
Together forever, never apart,
maybe in distance but never in heart.

We met when we were young, and I bless that day.
She always tells me how to find a way.
I cry, I break, can't seem to move ahead,
then she comes along saying it's not so bad.
The rose in my garden, the light in my night,
when everything's wrong, she's the only right.
So please come here, darling of my youth,
I want to hold you tight and tell you the truth.
For how many people come into my life,
you will always be the one of all times.

Now life's not what we wished before,
I ask you what are we really living for.
You don't give me a word, slowly look at me
and I see a little girl walking by the sea.
Suddenly I realise this is what we do,
we fight and our dreams never do come true.
And when I take some time to get up when I fall,
you give me your hand and never let me crawl,
and I end up praying to the highest star
that someday we'll be loved for the way we are.

"And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries"

I'm the rock on the beach, the one you know.
I'm the shell in the sand, the one you like.
I'm the plants in the water that sail with the flow,
that cactus of yours - I'm the seventh spike.

I'm the stone in the road, the one you crossed.
I'm the bridge over the river you once gazed.
I'm the paint in those letters you once tossed,
I'm the moon in the sky that gets you amazed.

I'm the wood from the tree where you left your mark,
that purple flower on the green floor you stepped on - I'm it.
I'm that lonely bench that lies still in the dark,
the one you sat on once - now it just doesn't fit.

I'm the door and its lock that you just won't open
even if I give you the key that I've always been.
I'm the mouth that kept the words unspoken,
I'm the blood and the heart and all the dead things within.

Don't try so hard

I don't want to think about things.
I don't feel like working a lot.
I've been through seventeen springs
and I wonder if they were worth a shot.

I don't want to focus or try,
I don't want to fight over you.
I don't even know if I want to cry,
and I don't feel like wanting a clue.

I don't know what's got into me,
maybe I flew too high for my soul.
Unlock it, I just can't find the key,
Fulfill it, I don't want cover this hole.

I don't want to stay here, I don't know why,
but going other place doesn't appeal me either.
I feel like you could leave me here to die
and I would not move until my eyes were wider.

I don't feel like I want to be saved,
but I reason and find out that I do.
Your heart and mind have left me enslaved,
and I'm trapped forever with you.

Pain

Tell me why it hurts so much,
like a knife in my skin or someone died.
I feel no joy, no hug, no kiss, no touch,
I'm full of emptiness on the inside.

Where's that wide smile on my face?
It's gone.

"I told you so"

Yes, you tried. You did tell me so,
you warned me, you offered protection.
Have I listened to your word? No.
I thought I was following the right direction.

I thought my love had come along
and those lonely nights would soon be over.
I thought it wouldn't take too long
for me to lay down on his soft shoulder.

I thought I was catching all of the signs
I needed to catch in order to succeed.
You told me I was imagining them in my mind,
you gave me your word and I didn't believe.

Now I must go back to my old world
where my heart wasn't ruled by a singular one,
where my head would spin and my mood would twirl
with a simple laugh and a sentence undone.

I was told the truth, which I didn't believe,
I tried to walk on my own and I failed.
I lived so high, now I'm getting used to live
with a heart going down like a piano scale.

Something's missing close to me,
something incompletes my life, still.
Something's not where it should be
and I don't know if ever will.