Pain

Tell me why it hurts so much,
like a knife in my skin or someone died.
I feel no joy, no hug, no kiss, no touch,
I'm full of emptiness on the inside.

Where's that wide smile on my face?
It's gone.

"I told you so"

Yes, you tried. You did tell me so,
you warned me, you offered protection.
Have I listened to your word? No.
I thought I was following the right direction.

I thought my love had come along
and those lonely nights would soon be over.
I thought it wouldn't take too long
for me to lay down on his soft shoulder.

I thought I was catching all of the signs
I needed to catch in order to succeed.
You told me I was imagining them in my mind,
you gave me your word and I didn't believe.

Now I must go back to my old world
where my heart wasn't ruled by a singular one,
where my head would spin and my mood would twirl
with a simple laugh and a sentence undone.

I was told the truth, which I didn't believe,
I tried to walk on my own and I failed.
I lived so high, now I'm getting used to live
with a heart going down like a piano scale.

Something's missing close to me,
something incompletes my life, still.
Something's not where it should be
and I don't know if ever will.

"Dis-moi pour qui j'existerais"

Be sure you're my every morning sun
and my ever-rising moonshine.
Just know you're the only one
who can put my words to a rhyme.

If I hadn't known

I wouldn't know pain
but my life would be tortuous.
The blood that runs through my veins
wouldn't have any purpose.

I'd never wish under a moonbeam
but I'd still believe angels were fake.
I wouldn't know how to dream
even when I'm wide awake.

It wouldn't feel like swords
were trespassing my bleeding heart.
But I'd be ruled by broken chords,
no melody in a soundless dark.

I would be ignorant in my lonely pathway
where I couldn't sigh for what I'd never known.
But that overwhelming smile to make my day
would never sing along with those eyes of your own.

And so I thank you for being around,
though these depressing feelings still persist.
'Cause I'd still be empty and my soul uncrowned
if I hadn't known that you exist.

Comforting thunder

Watch through this rearview mirror,
the rain’s falling to the soulless ground.
It’s a kind of an invisible armor
that hides my pain without making a sound.

Shouldn’t be thinking about it.
Shouldn’t be wondering about it.
Shouldn’t be whispering about it.
Won’t heaven hear my prayers?

I bend and break right from the start
with your deep thoughts and lovely style.
If you leave my life, please, take my heart
‘cause it can’t beat along without your smile.

Leave me in this soft thunder, so blue…
Where I can go mad
in my own crying cloud.

I just want to reach you
so bad…
I just don’t know how.

Unforgettable

Those memories don't vanish from my mind.
Those beautiful memories, times long gone...
I remember those words - they were kind,
I remember those thoughts - didn't go on.

How this world was such a pretty place!
Coloured from the sky to the ground.
Today, from those rainbows I have no trace,
and this world's nothing but a rough sound.

I used to wake up to the sound of spring everyday
and feel the flowers and the sun the whole year long.
Now I still find no difference between November and May
because each day's compared to a sad, strange song.

I fell asleep one day, right in front of the TV.
The same simple nightmare - just go!
No dreams then - those reassembled much reality...
Lately, only those can push my pain down low.

No smile inside my soul, no freedom within my heart,
i miss the comfort of the tears I didn't cry.
I let those feelings slip way, but the best part
is that they'll never escape from my own, beautiful sky.